How it feels

How can something Confuse and hurt so bad
The promise I have in my heart, the picture painted in my dreams …
Is beyond spoken words, it must be felt to be known
When I look at the present I ask myself …
How can it be that this wonderful feeling makes me feel so empty inside?
At the same time I cannot think of a reason why we can’t be
My every thought is of you and its killing me
I hate this feeling; butterflies fill my stomach I Feel so sick
My heart beat I can feel it thrusting through my chest whenever I think of you
I cannot be productive in this state of being

I have a million thoughts running through my mind
I have tried everything and I have failed
I told myself, I could be just as I was before I knew of you
I tried a Replacement, if only I could find someone as good
Maybe I had found the one but I know not the difference
And I careless because what I need is you
Everything I tried was junk, it was useless
I could never forget about you and truth is I don’t want to
I am tired of the sadness; I am tired of wishing and dreaming
I cannot be hopeful any more I have to have you, I feel it’s long overdue

The mood changes so quickly and I then Made a decision
I decided to give you up; after all you are not mine to give up
I had the perfect game plan; I was going to forget all about you
Stop being a dreamer and be a realist
But my thoughts deceived me …
Somehow I keep thinking of how it would be to have you
My heart keeps yearning for you,
Day in and day out it never stops it just keeps getting worse
I know in my heart I am not what you dream of and I also know that
I am beyond what you dream and hope for ….
I am that girl who will to make you see why it never worked before
But only if you could see me for me